I can't believe that you were on gmail RIGHT AFTER I HAD TO GO!!!!! Arrrgh....

English, English, English. Mrs. Daley was not too happy with me today because Em kept whispering this guy's name to me and then I finally threw a pencil at her and...yeah. Hahahahahahahaha. Also, my friends told me I had blue marker on my face when I didn't. Which I didn't find out until after class.

Poor Jasmine. Now they are being mean to her. I came very close to saying, 'I told you so, ' but refrained. She comes up to me and she's like, 'They're mean.' Without missing a beat, I'm like, 'I know.' Haha, well, I mean DUH. (!!!!!!!!)

I love how she puts things because she is from Korea, so she has this broken English that, in some way, makes more sense than other people because she uses words that are simpler and more direct. Like, she says things like that 'I have a lot of pride.' or 'You are very kind.' It's funny, but I like it.

So, I guess they are ditching her and ignoring her texts. I can tell that they are doing it on purpose, because, well, I was with them for the whole Lisa thing. So now she has no friends and is too proud to go to another group. I have no idea what she will do. I really didn't want to offer for her to hang out with us, but she, luckily saved me. She said, 'I would like to hang out with you because you are very kind, (see?), and it's too bad...'

I thought she was saying that because she's not really friends with my group, (especially Emily), so I said, 'Yeah, because of Emily and them....' (very vaguely).

And she's like, 'And I don't really know if I want to hang out with guys anyways.'

Well, I think, in her case, beggars can't be choosers. And I don't mind it at all, I actually enjoy it; they make great friends because they are so un-dramatic.

So I said, 'Oh, I've been having a lot of fun.'

And I tried to come up with a bunch of people, but she rejected everyone, so we will see what she does tommorow. She says she cannot go back to them now. I think she will have to swallow her pride and sit with someone new. But that's just my opinion.

So, that's it for today! Post soon! LOve, Blonde

Today was a fairly unimportant day. I'm in conflict witht three things, though, please give me your opinion:

1. Gabby Micalizio. I am still annoyed that she, of all people, has gone over to the dark side. I want to say something clever that will make her feel guilty, (because she SHOULD) and get her to realize how stupid she's being. But I can't think of anything. Please help!

2. Jasmine. Now Jasmine is making sure that she is not seen with me when Jade and them are around. She, like, lagged behind so they couldn't tell. What a loser. Of course, I had to pass on just how cool she was to other people, hahaha. What I can't decide is whether there is a point in confronting her about it or not. I mean, I never really liked her in the first place, and, at this point, I really have to pick my battles. But still...

3. Marrin. She said she will tell me and Emily who she likes if I tell her who I like, (she already knows about Emily). But, like I would tell Marrin who I liked! She would, like, blackmail me or tell people! Hahahahahahahaaha I love Marrin, but it's true. I mean, look what she did within five mintutes, when she THOUGHT she knew who I liked! Haha. Emily and I are debating on whether I should just make someone up...it would sacrifice my pride, but it would be SO interesting to see who Marrin likes...I have no idea right now who it would be...

Well, that is it. Emily's so funny about (Michael) Renna. She actually called me Michael today on accident! Haha. Renna's mom is very nice. Renna is part of the group I hang out with and I was sitting next to him at lunch and his mom came over and needed the names of everyone in the homeroom and I am in his homeroom, so I was helping him out with the names of the girls, (he didn't remember a bunch of the girls in our homeroom, which I thought was kind of funny. Especially since Madison was one of them that he didn't remember:)) . His mom knew my name- I don't know if that is a good thing or a bad thing hahaha. :)

I love English. I know this sounds stupid, but the advanced class-well, they are my people, if that makes sense! I have the most friends in that class-I have always loved that class of people. Oh, the pencil pouch thing-it's so funny; it has gotten bigger and bigger. Now everyone all down the row knows what it is and even some peopl in the row in front of us, both guys and girls. There are certain unspoken rules-like, you never give it back to Emily. If it is me or someone, ok. It'a your choice. Like, (Ryan) Heiss is always very nice to me and gives it back to me. But, like, Emily, you just don't. It's so funny. Everyone knows the rules. The other day, when we had a very strict sub(stitute), Patrick put it under the projecter. Emily was like, "Patrick, give it back!" because the sub was kind of mean and had already told Emily and me off once. But Patrick's just like, "Oh, I forget where I put it," even though he SO didn't. Hahahahahaha and even Renna doesn't give it back now. I love it. I never thought of myself as a troublemaker, but I am becoming one. Well, not like obvnovxious or outright or anything. Well, it's more having fun then troublemaking. But I am having fun in class, partly helped by the fact that I am not considered a "bad" student, (which I am not), Mrs. Daley is not strict, and I am in the back row. :)

Well, that's it for today! Post soon....and I'm still waiting for your belated comments!!!!!!

Love, Blonde

Disturbia (random I know, but I was listening to the song as I was typing!)

Hey you, my stupid philosophical Blonde! (well that's how you put it, I'm not going to argue) :) I am SO SO sorry that I have left you to do this silly blog by yourself! FOUR POSTS?! All by one girl? CRAZY! CONSPIRACY! I've just been so busy lately....I haven't had time to do anything on the computer. That reminds me, I have to respond to Emi....she emailed me! A few days ago too -- I haven't responded because, well, I already said it. Busy! Hahaha I am feeling guilty though, so I will definitely try to respond to her today. Or this afternoon. Or tonight. I am actually supposed to be doing schoolwork, cuz Mom and Mo and Mic are doing P.E. I already ran this morning so I am not doing it with them. I'm getting back into running....it was weird though, the reason I stopped for a while was because of the whole eating thing. I was just using the running as a way to burn more calories, but it hurt to run cuz when you don't refuel properly your muscles get really sore. But I kinda ignored the pain cuz I was dead-set on losing weight. I was kind of used to it by then, because honestly it hurts a little to starve yourself. But anyway...........hahahahahahaha :) Oh yeah speaking of that, I got my test back. I got a 92! Yay! Hahaha :) Basically I poured everything out on that essay question, and my teacher wrote a comment on the paper. This is what she said:

"Wow!! I got goosebumps! I think God has gifted you with an opportunity to counsel peaople with eating disorders. You speak from experience, so you can empathize with their feelings. Have you thought about this as a ministry or even a profession? I think you would help a lot of people!

I hope you over came your disorder to your satisfaction!! Praise God you're dealing with it before it's too late!"

I thought that was pretty cool! I never thought about counseling...I think I want to be a director when I grow up -- like direct movies especially. I've been thinking about it a lot lately. I mean it's always been something that I've enjoyed learning about, but I want to pursue it more seriously. For my electives for SM, I want one of them to be Beginning Film-Making. They offer it for freshman and sophomores...I'm so excited! It sounds like a lot of fun!!

Wow, it does feel like I'm writing in a diary! I write a lot of stuff that i WOULD be writing in a diary, if I had the patience to keep one. I always start one and then I keep it for a few weeks, then I get bored with it. My life isn't that exciting most of the time. Well, actually it is. But I don't like repeating it. :)

I called you last night to see if you were coming to EYG! I needed to know so I could pick you up....by the time you called my mom and I had already left hahahaha.... But you should have been there! We started learning the dance for the talent show....wow it was a blast! Verrrrry funny heheheheheeeeeee.... Oh yeah I get to be a guy, or maybe Martha (you know, the really big cheerleader girl hahahahahahahahahahahahaha lol!).

About the stuff with your friends/ex-friends.....there's a lot I have to say about that but since you love getting comments so much, I will save it for that! Bye for now.....I willl definitely try to post later today to make up for lost time! :)

Love, your insane friend,

Brunette.

P.S. Funny story...you know the test? Well Mrs.Tamez always gives whoever gets 100 on their test a candy bar. Well Paige of course got one cuz she aced the test (she's a total genius, I love her), but I got a candy bar too even though I didn't get 100! I think it was probably cuz of the essay question.....poor Mrs. Tamez wants to make sure I don't have a relapse! :)

This is officially my FOURTH BLOG WITH NO BLOG FROM YOU!!!!!!!! Six thirty has come and gone...post soon! Anyways, I am going late to school because my grandparents were over for my grandpa's birthday and I didn't get to finish my homework. So if you post before 10:00 a.m., then I will be able to read it. Of course nothing has happened yet today, but I will probably post later, after school. How was EYG? Was the talent show fun?I called you back, but you didn't answer. YOU GUYS NEED TO START PICKING UP THE PHONE!!!!!!!!! Ok, that is all :) Read my post from last night if you haven't already! Love, Blonde

Well, I read your comment and I really can't take credit for all that. I mean, I WAS furious. Not particularly humiliated, because they're stupid and I don't walk any differently than they do. I couldn't resist a few well placed comments to make them wonder today though. First to Gabby M., because she should be feeling more than a little guilty. I mean, I know she was just doing it to fit in, but, really. So, as I was leaving the classroom, I looked her in the eye and said, 'Do you usually watch people walk?' And she looked confused, because she didn't know that I knew. I love shocking people! She's like, 'What?' And I was like, 'Gabby, I know.' And she was like, 'Yeah,' and I left the room. :) haha that was fun. Next, after lunch, I had MS Enrichment, where I sit next to Rachael who sits next to Jade. Miserable, right? And stupid Rachael doesn't know that I know either. She tries to act like we're friends. She's like talking to me and I'm like really distant. Finally, I say, 'You should watch what you say in front of Jasmine, because she tells me everything.' Well, that shut her up, she didn't talk to me for the rest of class! That girl has a guilty conscience, though, she kept glancing at me throughout the class. And I talked to Tori today because we had to sit together in Tech. According to Jasmine, Tori and Jade were not making fun of me, but they were the only ones. So I told her that Jasmine told me everything. And she was really curious, so I told her what Jasmine had said. Then she was really uncomfortable and was like, 'Oh, yeah, I think both Gabbys are just doing that to fit in, I'm guessing. But you're still my friend, so I didn't.' My goal is to get Tori to realize just how mean her friends are. So I told her about what they said to Emily about me and she's like, 'Really? No one ever told me about that.' And I said, 'Yeah, but I don't really care, I'm over them.' And she's like, 'That's mean!' (meaning what they did). And I'm like, 'Yeah, but whatever.' Reverse pyshcology, right? haha. And she's like, 'They can be stupid sometimes.'

THAT IS OFFICIALLY THE UNDERSTATELMENT OF THE DAY. THE WEEK, THE MONTH. THE YEAR!!!!!!!!

Anyways, I was talking to Lisa, (yes, Lisa), who says that she won't rub it in TOO much, (haha). Jade, that is. She has warned me about Jade all along. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Anyways, turns out she hears a lot of interesting things about them on me... Those things both horrify and fascinate me. I am able to see the utter ridiculousness of the situation...but I am also able to remember that they were some of my best friends at one time. If a person dwells on that for too long, it can really make them sad. I mean, I loved this group! I STARTED this group. They were all together because they were MY friends. Every single one of them but Rachael. That is why I can't blame Rachael as much. She never signed on as my friend, she was always strictly Jade's friend.

Speaking of Jade, guess what I found out? Tori said she thinks Jade feels bad about the whole thing sometimes. As Lisa said, (it is sorta nice being freinds with Lisa again-she's a good casual friend in a couple classes; it just doesn't work as a close friend) 'She SHOULD feel bad!' And as I said to Tori, 'Well, she's certainly doing a good job pretending that she's NOT sorry!' To Jade's credit, I have never heard from my spies, (haha, not really spies, but people DO tell me things), that Jade has said she disliked me. I mean, I am sure she has made fun of me or whatever. But I think she more is sure that I don't like her than she dislikes me. Now I am not sure about that, but, like, I don't think Jade would ever DIRECTLY give me any problems. She knows, by now, that I don't take her crap, (sorry, no other way to express it.). And, like, in class, when I was gone, Jade said, 'Let's sit there, (next to where I was), and Rachael's like, 'No, 'Blonde' sits here.' and Jade was like, 'Oh, yeah, she hates me right now.' RIGHT NOW?????? How about she hates me, period. End of sentence. But I have to give her credit: she said 'she hates me', not 'i hate her' or 'ew, mackenzie', like she would've to Lisa or whatever. So that makes me think-well, no. I am not going to defend Jade.

Haha, when I write these posts, I feel like I am writing in a diary or something. When it is something like this, at least. When I am, like, posting about a boring day, I feel like I am just writing to you out of sense of duty. But when I am writing about something like this, I cease to write to you anymore, (no offense!!!!! :)). I am just writing what I think. I have no sense if this is interesting at all to you, but all this needs to go SOMEWHERE and I can never remember to keep a diary. So here it is...:)

On an utterly unrelated note, we had to do this thing where we have to vote for who is the most Christian-like or nice person in our grade. Two guys, two girls. It was so stupid; we did it on paper and then, Mrs. Egus, our evil tech teacher, wanted to tryrannize us again, since tech is over, and made us rip up the papers and re-do it on this online thing she found. My two girls were Ashley and Addie. My two guys were Bill and Sean. It was really hard-you had to write about why you chose them too. Addie: nice to ppl no matter how popular they are; (aka Gabby M), Ashley: includes everyone; Sean: Nice to everyone; Bill: everybody's friend. Now, about Bill, I honestly do not like him anymore. I am utterly serious. I am not just saying that. We were in a group together in MS Enrich and that sealed it. We both like to be leaders and fight for control in a polite way. :) Haha, not like fight, but it annoyed me. Anyways, that is long over, thank goodness. Yes, he is very nice, but I just don't like him that way anymore, and I am happy about that. :)

So that's it for today! Please post soon so this is not a one (wo)man blog!!!!!!!

LOve from your stupid, philosophical,

BLONDE

Well, with the help of my friends, I was able to see the humorous side of the situation and turned the situation around totally. It was sooooo funny! Okay, so here's what happened, (yesterday, I was so mad that I didn't even want to get into it again):

So, yesterday, Jasmine told me that Gabby W., (who has absoultely no reason to dislike me and is perfectly friendly when I see her), Rachael, and Maddison were making fun of me at lunch,
Jasmine told me, (about the way I walk, (what the heck???? Who notices how someone WALKS???? Who CARES???), and that I was hanging out with these people because they do sports at lunch), while Tori and Jade laughed. Now, I realize that they are totally lame, but I was FURIOUS. And guess what? Someone else told me that Gabby Micalizio is going around saying, Have you seen the way 'Blonde walks?' GABBY MICALIZIO!!!!!! Who, like, never has any friends. Who sits alone after she eats at lunch. Who I was always nice to. WHO WAS SUPPOSED TO BE A NICE PERSON!!!! I mean, really. She has NO room to make fun of anyone. She who talks about ghosts and getting her hair dyed red and getting a nose ring. Honestly.

So, naturally, I was furious. But then I started to see how much fun I could have with this. After consulting Emily T and making her go with me, and texting Serena, I made a plan. A hilarious plan. Like, I want to laugh just thinking of it. Really, it's Emily's fault. I mean, she dared me to do it when I told her. :)

So, you know how they think I walk weird? Well, I grabbed Emily, and we found them standing by the field. So, we very casually walked by-except for one thing. The way I walked. I walked with my left foot pointed all the way left and my right all the way right and pointed right. And I lifted each leg so that it was crossing the other. IT WAS SOOOOO FUNNY!!!!! Emily and I nearly DIED of laughing afterwards. I could see them watching us. Then, when we crossed the corner, I could see them running to tell Maddie, who had unfortunately not there to see my performance. They are so predictable and ridiculous. I wish you could've seen it, it was so funny!!!!!!!! You would've been cracking up.

So that is my way to overcome the situation and have fun with it. It is really much better to just make a joke of it than to get all upset and dramatic over it. And, instead of being really mad when I think about it, I want to laugh when I do. They're so stupid and shallow. Thank God for Emily. (And Lizzy and Ashley and everyone else. But mainly Emily.)

So there you are. That was my day. And my sermon. Haha, I feel like lately, I've been preaching at the end of my posts. Sorry! Please comment and post! Hope you had a good day! Love, Blonde

Hey, Brunette! I like your last post, it's very well written...

Sometimes I scare myself a little. If something bad happens, I hold it in and don't tell anyone-or maybe someone at school-but when I get home, I have to act like nothing happens. Nothing bad, like bad bad. Just-well, by now you have probabaly guessed that something bad has happened! Not directly, but I heard about it. It's those stupid girls again. I don't know if I'm glad I know or not. Little do they know that they have an informer within them! And guess who it was? None other than Jasmine! She tells me what they say and I act like I don't care...I don't know if I do. Sometimes I do, sometimes I don't. It's just frusterating, because they used to be like some of my best friends. Well, that's about it. If I'm still this mad tommorow, I would like to see one of them if they try to talk to me...

What I Go To School For

Hey Blonde! Mo and Mic, along with mother, are all downstairs watching a show that I am not crazy about, so I have the computer to myself, hence I can post in PEACE! Finally! It is sooo annoying to have to use the family desktop in a room without doors. Ugh.

The other day was Biola, so while I was sitting there in class I thought I should write sometime about what my day at Biola is usually like. My first class, I.E.W. (stands for the Institute for Excellence in Writing....sheesh), starts at 9:05. Teacher is Mrs. Osborne -- very tall, not fat but heavy and EXTREMELY awkward. It's painful to watch. It's not like she is awkward talking or anything, but she looks so uncomfortable when she's walking or standing or sitting. Pidgen toed. Shoulder-length yellow hair. Weak voice. My class consists of: Keira, Nate, Paige, Taylor, Phillip, Felicity, Gina, and me. There used to be a TON of more people, but a lot of them dropped out over semester break cuz it was getting expensive (ugh, one person in particular who dropped out comes to mind. But it's not important anymore hahahaha!). Borinnnng class, and it does not help that its my first class, cuz it would help if I had a funner class to start off the day! SOmetimes we play games though, so it has the potential to be fun. But mostly it's my drag class.

An hour and a half later, I get out of class, meet Nicole in study hall, go to the bathroom with Nicole, go back to study hall/chapel and sit with Paige and Nate. Listen to the student band sing. It's not much of a band, just a guy with a guitar and two girls. The guy can play the guitar and sing pretty well, but the girls....hmmm I think they just sing so they can sit next to the dude. If you knew them and you saw him then you would know what I mean! Hahahahaha :) Then after the singing Pastor Carr comes in and talks to us all about a portion of the Bible (right now it's Ephesians). I like Pastor Carr -- he's really nice and funny and he doesn't take himself too seriously.

Chapel takes 40 minutes, and so after class I head to science with Paige and Nicole, and Sam, Michael, and Phillip follow. Or lead. Whatever...we all get there! :) My science/health teacher is Mrs. Tamez. I LOVE her. Even though she is older, she is very pretty. Short, silver-blonde hair, big blue eyes, perfect nose, and she always dresses really nicely. She's very funny and easy-going...she is one teacher who pretty much lets you off easily if you need an extension or you forget something. But she doesn't put up with nonsense either. It was funny the other day -- you see, Sam is pretty talkative sometimes even though he talks really, I dunno, smartly, but he tends to get sidetracked. So we were in class and Sam was talking about some random thing and Mrs. Tamez was like, "Sam, do you have ADD?" And he's like, "It's possible." And then he laughs (he always laughs after he says something) and we all start cracking up. Science class is the best class -- it's annoying though because it is right before lunch, and every Wednesday you can order pizza at Biola. So we are all hungry in class and we can just SMELL the pizza since we are downstairs., and poor Nicole gets super hungry and her stomach starts growling and then we are all like, "I'M STARVING!" Yeah.

So then there is lunch. Not much to say about it....there are no chairs or tables and we all eat outside with no parents or anything and the seventh graders are really crazy and almost every time something gets spilled on the ground where everyone is sitting (cold concrete) so we all have to pic up our books, backpacks, and lunches and relocate to another patch of hard asphalt. Ugh.

Last class is history. It's only me, Jonathon, and Sam, and our teacher is Mrs. Carlson. She used to scare me because I thought she hated me but now she likes me so I am no longer scared! Hahahaha.... :) Kind of a subdued class...we start off with turning in homework and then we take our quizzes, and usually for the rest of the class we do an art project while Mrs. Carlson reads something historical to us. Very relaxing! I like to end my day with it.

Sooooo then I go home, and I'm usually picked up by Mrs. Waymire or Mrs. Deffenbaugh, and then when I get to my house I take a shower and do math with my mom, and then go to EYG! And that is my day at Biola! Hope I didn't bore you to death.....but I said all the sentimental things in my comment to you! :)

Love, Brunette.

Wow, I have such a complicated, stressful life. I really need Easter vacation. No, I will probably get homework and projects assigned during that. I need summer. Badly. Between people and projects, I am constantly stressed. I honestly do not remember the last time that I was NOT stressed about anything. Between watching out for a girl who probably doesn't even like me, (not watching out for her as in avoiding her, no, watching out for her as in I am helping her out, though she doesn't even know it...), dealing with another who is bordering on obsession with me, (she told me today that me and another girl are the only people she can really talk to), keeping my current friends, dealing with my old friends, and grades and school and homework-there is not enough time in the day and I am EXHASUTED. I literally do nothing but school all week, (except bible study with Saddelback). I wake up at 6:00 a.m. every morning and rarely get to sleep in as long as I'd like on the weekends. Wow, I just read over my post...sorry, I am like totally complaining. Like I said I was going to give up. Right. Hmmmm...a good thing today...well, I can think of funny things....like how I convinced Brandon he should sign up for singing a solo or part in our graduation song hahahahaha. He does have a pretty good voice though. Let's see...I wasn't missing anything today...that is, I turned in all my homework today on time. That's good. And...recess, that was ok. A bunch of us just kicked the ball around. Yesterday, we played this really fun game at lunch...you have to have a lot of people and you stand in a circle. Two people are in the middle. It is keep-away, but you have to pass the ball to people with your feet. Well, there is a bit of cheating that goes on, but it doesn't really matter. Just most of the time, the ball must be on the ground. And the two in the middle have to both try to get the ball. The last one to touch it has to switch with the person who got the ball, and they are then in the middle. It was really fun. Ashley, Emily, Lizzy, and I were the only girls, but whatever. I had a great time, I think I was laughing the whole time. My brother saw me as he walked by. He was just walking around with some friends, because he only plays soccer, because apparently 'no one' plays basketball or anything when the seventh graders don't have the field. Big deal. We do! Then again, we're eighth graders. Whatever. Haha we got in trouble, when Bill or someone kicked the ball over the fence and Guido was sent over the fence to get it. So he climbed over. Later, we were explained to by a very irate and annoyed yard supervisor that the gate had been open all along. Right. And then, Emily and I forgot our jackets, (as usual), panicked, (as usual), went back for them, (as usual), and found, (as usual), that Guido had grabbed them for us. I have to say, Guido is a gentleman. So are a bunch of the guys that we hang out with at lunch and recess. It is nice, after some of the jerks in my classes. And the girls are great because they are not gossips and don't just sit around and make trouble. This group is so simple. And it's amazing. I love it! My old group goes, by turns, talking to me like we're friends and talking about me behind my back. At one point, they said to Emily, 'Wow, I feel sorry for you, 'Blonde' hangs out with you now.' And Emily said, 'What if she's my friend?' To which they said, 'Then you're stupid.' And Emily's like, 'Ok, whatever.' And Emily told me about that. And you know what my response was? 'Wow, they are such LOSERS.' They really are. I have not spent one minute worrying about them and I am so much happier now that I am not with them. They, according, to a girl, have been talking about who I'm hanging out with, etc. Because they have nothing better to do. But I am not like them. I have better things to think about than them. In fact, I can honestly say that I don't care about them. I really don't. And it's such a relief knowing that. This whole thing has been a bit of a blessing in disguiuse, in a way. I can't say that I am glad that it happened, but I am happy where I ended up. One thing I have learned from this is that you should make friends with EVERYONE AND ANYONE WHO IS NICE TO YOU. Because someday, no matter how popular they are now, or how much more popular you are, you might need them. That has happened to me three times that I can think of, and probably so many more. I don't know what I would do if I hadn't included these people when I didn't want to, or was nice when I didn't need to be or was tempted not to be. Well, I really have to go now, so now that I have dumped all that on you...goodbye! Leave a comment, I love getting them! Love, Blonde

S.O.S.

Hey Blonde! THis is Brunette (well obviously, who else would it be?) Hahahaha well I am very sorry but I have nothing to write about right now....my life is a bit boring at this point.

I cannot WAIT till highschool! I'm thinking about it like every single minute of the day but I am sooo scared, like UGH!!!!! It's horrible, I just keep thinking "worst case scenario"....like on the first day I will be called on in class and all I will be able to manage is, "Uh, uh, uh, I, uh, I, uh, uh, uh". For the rest of my four years at S.M, I am known as Uh.

Or some guy comes up to me (prefferably a certain someone named Jake) and says, "Hi" and I can't think of anything clever to say back so I just stand there blushing like crazy while the dude looks at me and realizes I am either mute, insane, or totally stuck-up. For the rest of my four years at S.M., I am known as Silent-but-Deadly.

Or I am walking down the hall and I trip over myself and fall on someone. I stammer an apology, try to get up, and fall down again, all in front of everyone. For the rest of my life, I am known as Sir Tripsalot.

SOOOOO you can see part of why I am so nervous! I keep listening to the song "Fifteen" cuz I am trying to mentally prepare myself by listening to it, but it's probably NOT helping cuz the song is actually kind of sad and it's saying how you wish that when you are older you could go back and tell yourself NOT to do something that you did when you were in highschool.

Well there, I posted! Wow, I didn't think I would be able to write anything, but I did! Hahahahahaha go me....I think it helped my self-confidence. Jk :)

Love, BRUNETTTTTTTTTTTE!

Light On

I am sitting here alone in my house, in my office, with my light on. Hence the name of this post. Good times in English. BEST CLASS!!!!!!!!! Like, a ton of friends and a teacher who is not very strict and lets us have free seating!!!!!! Bad news-tommorow we have mass at school-and I pick up first graders to take them to Mass-with Maddie and Tori. AKWARD!!!!!!!! I am dreading that. Maybe I'll take Emily along. Maybe. After all, they take Tori and Jade. But....six people to pick up one class? I don't know. And how obvious would that be? Since we're not friends anymore, I'm dragging Emily along. Um, yeah.

Well, about your situation-ouch. You could say something next time. You know, explain. Not that you did-but why people get them and stuff. Just a suggestion! Well, g2g, bye :) Love, Blonde

tied together with a smile

Hey Blonde, again! Yesterday was Biola...tough day for me, at least in health. See, our chapter this week was on nutrition, so that included eating and stuff, and eating disorders (ugh, WHY?!) So we were talking about the disorder thing in class (well, the rest of the class was talking, i was pretty much silent through the whole conversation), and it was horrrrible. My teacher was all saying like how anorexia is a disease and it's because the person is insecure and obsessed with their body weight, so they starve themselves so that they can feel in control of their life...so then the rest of the class joins in on the discussion and they are all saying stuff like how you would have to be crazy to starve yourself and they could never do that ("Dude, like who wouldn't want to eat food?!"). And I'm just sitting there thinking, Geez people, you have no IDEA! I was trying to tune out what they were saying cuz it really hurt. I mean, I'm all over the eating problem, but it was still a really hard part of my life and it hurts when you hear people talk about it like that. And guess what? One of the questions on the test we have to take is "Suppose you had a friend who was anorexic. What are the signs, and how would you help that person?" UGH!!!! I CANT BELIEVE THIS!!! You know what? I think I am just going to be honest about it and answer the question through my own words and experience. It's going to be hard, but how else will I explain to Mrs. Tamez how I know so much about it? Sigh....

Well sorry, that was a very honest and depressing post! Hahahaha but its been on my mind so I though I should write about it! Thanks for reading :)

Love, Brunette

I'm sooooooooo annoyed!!!!! I just wrote this super long post and only like the first sentence saved and now it's gone! I don't feel like re-typing, so I'll just tell you l8r. Nothing earth-shaking. <3,>

Just Dance. And laugh. Hehehe. :)

State the obvious Blonde.....everyone who KNOWS me thinks I am weird gosh!!!! Like, got a PROBLEM with it? Cuz if you do have a problem with it then....hmm I dont really know, you could talk to Sam but since hes a vampire and he knows me then he would kill you. So, yeah.

Yes, Marie is twelve but I really dont care cuz I love her to death, she is like my own sister and she is one of my very bestest friends hahahahaha :) She is HILARIOUS omg we have the greatest time you should get to know her! You would love her hahahahahaha :))))

Oh yes, sorry bout that.....I was talking about a different Michael; there were two in my class and the one (Stephen, sigh) left. Oh well. Makes the ride to Biola less nervous.

I got Breaking Dawn from the library -- ahhhh! Finally! I was up reading in my bathroom till 12:30 last night, so this morning was a DRAG getting up....ugh, when will I learn? Well I suppose I will have to get used to it once I get my laptop fixed....hehehe we are so bad. I can't believe how sneaky we are! Gosh.

The worship night with EYG was AMAZING! It was so cool to see all these ordinary teenagers worship God without any other cares. Wow, I was kinda crying during some of it...it was really powerful!

I had SOOOO much fun with you and Beatrice on Friday! We are so nuts -- okay, I'M so nuts. But whatever. Do I laugh too much? Well if I do I really dont care cuz laughing is scientifically proven to be good for your health. So when you are forty years old and pathetically frail, I will be fit as a fiddle till I'm one hundred and four. Maybe even FIVE. Oooohhhh, what now huh? :)

Love, BRUNETTTTTTE. Oh yeah. Respect.

YOU ARE SOOOOOOOOOOOOO WEIRD!!!!!! A vampire???? Hahahaah you reminded me of something that happened in Pali. So, we're all sitting in our cabin in Pali and Jade and I were casting who would be who in Twilight, in our school. We did it together, because everyone else would, like, put their friends, but both of us were very ruthless and specific about it and only put someone if they would really fit the part. Well, naturally, it got out, so everyone in our cabin was discussing it. Of course we put this guy in our school named R.J. as Edward because he looks JUST like the guy who plays Edward. Someone told him that he looked like Edward once, and he was like, 'Yeah, because I'm so hot.' (He was kidding of course. Well, I think.) So then everyone started talking about R.J. and Rachael's like, 'Don't tell anybody I said this, but he's kind of beautiful.' That was met with agreement from others and a not as nicely phrased, 'Yeah, he's hot,' from Caroline. So, in the different castings from other members of the cabin, R.J. consistantly made the cut as Edward. There is a scene from Twilight where Edward wears sunglasses and RJ wore similar ones, which caused Jade to swear that she should take a picture with him and say she met Robert Pattinson, (who plays Edward in Twilight). I very much encouraged her, because it would work AND it would be hilarious to see what he would say to
that request, but she never got up the courage to. :) And Michael...I thought he left Biola? And isn't Marie like way younger than us? Well, that's all 4 today, exceot 4 have fun at the movies! And how did Megan W's youth group thing go, I 4got to ask......<3,>

Decode (its a song from Twilight so I thought I'd use it hehehe)

Hey Blonde! Today was Biola. I was watching Sam today in class (not in a weird way; he was just across the room hahaha) and guess what? I finally realized what he reminds me of. He reminds me of a vampire! Not a fang mouthed, bloody kind of vampire, but a Cullen vampire. And I know that Cullen vampires are supposed to be beautiful, but come to think of it Sam IS beatuiful in a weird, youthful, thin kind of way. Sam has very pale skin like the Cullens, not sickly pale but just very light-colored and clear. His eyes are very large and dark brown and his hair is wavy and light brown. But don't get me wrong -- I do NOT like Sam that way, he is a very nice guy but trust me I dont like him like that hahahahaha!!!! :)



Today when Michael passed me in the halls he was like, "Sup" and I was like, "Yo" and we gave each other air high fives. I like Michael hes nice...he reminds me of my friend Marie!

Hey Brunette!
Where I am: In the office
Just finished reading: The Wedding Planner's Daughter. It's really good. Serena lent it to me and I read it in one day! Yes, I have read Perfect.
Am currently reading: Emily of New Moon, by the author of Anne of Green Gables. Love it! I love old fashioned books like that and Little Women. Yes...about Twilight, I totally agree!!!! Bella is soooo stupid, she does whatever Edward says! I don't like Edward. He's too bossy!
Am listening to: Ummmm....nothing.

So, whoever commented on our blog, thank you! Comments are always read and appreciated! And, yes, our blog is fun because, when you blog, you actually have someone who will respond! My life is utterly confusing at this point in time, so I won't bother trying to explain my day....but
I do have a funny story:

So, to give you some background:

We recently finished reading in parts Anne Frank's diary in play form. So then we watched it because it's a movie that goes with it. So we were watching the movie and some of the lines were the same and I guess everyone forgot the lines because there is this one part where this guy goes, "You'd think we started the war!" Then he pauses and says, "Did we start the war?" So I remembered that part and so when he said, "You's think we'd started the war!", I said, really quietly, "Did we start the war?" And then he's like, "Did we start the war?" And then Marrin and Emily turn to me and they're like, "WHAT????? WOW HOW DID YOU KNOW THAT?????" It was really funny, I was laughing sooooo hard!!!!!

Well, that's it 4 today! <3,>

Unwritten (well, it's written....just not read?)

Hey Brunette!!!! Thanks for stopping by yesterday, that was fun and I love my presents!!!! I am wearing the bracelets right now, (I can't wear those earrings at school).



*****Hello, this is Brunette! I was looking over the "edit posts" page and I realized that this was just a draft....there's not much in it but I decided to publish it anyway!*******

hey blonde! why haven't you been posting?! i miss you and you aren't even GONE hahahaha :)

where i am: in front of the computer in the classroom

just finished reading: "Perfect". wow, i can DEFINITELY relate to that book!! read it and you'll see why.

am currently reading: "New Moon." ahhh!!!!! i am OBSESSED with twilight! i am mad because edward was gone for most of the book and i love him hehehehe.....but i would honestly be terrified to be bella. ugh, love has its boundaries if you ask me....VAMPIRE?!

am listening to: "no air." that song never gets old, does it? its beautiful.

yesterday we went to the american girl place in los angeles! even though the trip was centered around mo and mic for the most part, i still had lots of fun. except when i got a bad headache from the sun and smog. i definitely need sunglasses! i wish i had brown eyes....i get headaches since my eyes are so light-colored, making me squint.

i cannot WAIT for your birthday tomorrow! i hope you have a great time...AND YOU BETTER POST!!

love, brunette

PS happy birthday audrey!!!!!