I can't believe that you were on gmail RIGHT AFTER I HAD TO GO!!!!! Arrrgh....

English, English, English. Mrs. Daley was not too happy with me today because Em kept whispering this guy's name to me and then I finally threw a pencil at her and...yeah. Hahahahahahahaha. Also, my friends told me I had blue marker on my face when I didn't. Which I didn't find out until after class.

Poor Jasmine. Now they are being mean to her. I came very close to saying, 'I told you so, ' but refrained. She comes up to me and she's like, 'They're mean.' Without missing a beat, I'm like, 'I know.' Haha, well, I mean DUH. (!!!!!!!!)

I love how she puts things because she is from Korea, so she has this broken English that, in some way, makes more sense than other people because she uses words that are simpler and more direct. Like, she says things like that 'I have a lot of pride.' or 'You are very kind.' It's funny, but I like it.

So, I guess they are ditching her and ignoring her texts. I can tell that they are doing it on purpose, because, well, I was with them for the whole Lisa thing. So now she has no friends and is too proud to go to another group. I have no idea what she will do. I really didn't want to offer for her to hang out with us, but she, luckily saved me. She said, 'I would like to hang out with you because you are very kind, (see?), and it's too bad...'

I thought she was saying that because she's not really friends with my group, (especially Emily), so I said, 'Yeah, because of Emily and them....' (very vaguely).

And she's like, 'And I don't really know if I want to hang out with guys anyways.'

Well, I think, in her case, beggars can't be choosers. And I don't mind it at all, I actually enjoy it; they make great friends because they are so un-dramatic.

So I said, 'Oh, I've been having a lot of fun.'

And I tried to come up with a bunch of people, but she rejected everyone, so we will see what she does tommorow. She says she cannot go back to them now. I think she will have to swallow her pride and sit with someone new. But that's just my opinion.

So, that's it for today! Post soon! LOve, Blonde

Today was a fairly unimportant day. I'm in conflict witht three things, though, please give me your opinion:

1. Gabby Micalizio. I am still annoyed that she, of all people, has gone over to the dark side. I want to say something clever that will make her feel guilty, (because she SHOULD) and get her to realize how stupid she's being. But I can't think of anything. Please help!

2. Jasmine. Now Jasmine is making sure that she is not seen with me when Jade and them are around. She, like, lagged behind so they couldn't tell. What a loser. Of course, I had to pass on just how cool she was to other people, hahaha. What I can't decide is whether there is a point in confronting her about it or not. I mean, I never really liked her in the first place, and, at this point, I really have to pick my battles. But still...

3. Marrin. She said she will tell me and Emily who she likes if I tell her who I like, (she already knows about Emily). But, like I would tell Marrin who I liked! She would, like, blackmail me or tell people! Hahahahahahahaaha I love Marrin, but it's true. I mean, look what she did within five mintutes, when she THOUGHT she knew who I liked! Haha. Emily and I are debating on whether I should just make someone up...it would sacrifice my pride, but it would be SO interesting to see who Marrin likes...I have no idea right now who it would be...

Well, that is it. Emily's so funny about (Michael) Renna. She actually called me Michael today on accident! Haha. Renna's mom is very nice. Renna is part of the group I hang out with and I was sitting next to him at lunch and his mom came over and needed the names of everyone in the homeroom and I am in his homeroom, so I was helping him out with the names of the girls, (he didn't remember a bunch of the girls in our homeroom, which I thought was kind of funny. Especially since Madison was one of them that he didn't remember:)) . His mom knew my name- I don't know if that is a good thing or a bad thing hahaha. :)

I love English. I know this sounds stupid, but the advanced class-well, they are my people, if that makes sense! I have the most friends in that class-I have always loved that class of people. Oh, the pencil pouch thing-it's so funny; it has gotten bigger and bigger. Now everyone all down the row knows what it is and even some peopl in the row in front of us, both guys and girls. There are certain unspoken rules-like, you never give it back to Emily. If it is me or someone, ok. It'a your choice. Like, (Ryan) Heiss is always very nice to me and gives it back to me. But, like, Emily, you just don't. It's so funny. Everyone knows the rules. The other day, when we had a very strict sub(stitute), Patrick put it under the projecter. Emily was like, "Patrick, give it back!" because the sub was kind of mean and had already told Emily and me off once. But Patrick's just like, "Oh, I forget where I put it," even though he SO didn't. Hahahahahaha and even Renna doesn't give it back now. I love it. I never thought of myself as a troublemaker, but I am becoming one. Well, not like obvnovxious or outright or anything. Well, it's more having fun then troublemaking. But I am having fun in class, partly helped by the fact that I am not considered a "bad" student, (which I am not), Mrs. Daley is not strict, and I am in the back row. :)

Well, that's it for today! Post soon....and I'm still waiting for your belated comments!!!!!!

Love, Blonde

Disturbia (random I know, but I was listening to the song as I was typing!)

Hey you, my stupid philosophical Blonde! (well that's how you put it, I'm not going to argue) :) I am SO SO sorry that I have left you to do this silly blog by yourself! FOUR POSTS?! All by one girl? CRAZY! CONSPIRACY! I've just been so busy lately....I haven't had time to do anything on the computer. That reminds me, I have to respond to Emi....she emailed me! A few days ago too -- I haven't responded because, well, I already said it. Busy! Hahaha I am feeling guilty though, so I will definitely try to respond to her today. Or this afternoon. Or tonight. I am actually supposed to be doing schoolwork, cuz Mom and Mo and Mic are doing P.E. I already ran this morning so I am not doing it with them. I'm getting back into running....it was weird though, the reason I stopped for a while was because of the whole eating thing. I was just using the running as a way to burn more calories, but it hurt to run cuz when you don't refuel properly your muscles get really sore. But I kinda ignored the pain cuz I was dead-set on losing weight. I was kind of used to it by then, because honestly it hurts a little to starve yourself. But anyway...........hahahahahahaha :) Oh yeah speaking of that, I got my test back. I got a 92! Yay! Hahaha :) Basically I poured everything out on that essay question, and my teacher wrote a comment on the paper. This is what she said:

"Wow!! I got goosebumps! I think God has gifted you with an opportunity to counsel peaople with eating disorders. You speak from experience, so you can empathize with their feelings. Have you thought about this as a ministry or even a profession? I think you would help a lot of people!

I hope you over came your disorder to your satisfaction!! Praise God you're dealing with it before it's too late!"

I thought that was pretty cool! I never thought about counseling...I think I want to be a director when I grow up -- like direct movies especially. I've been thinking about it a lot lately. I mean it's always been something that I've enjoyed learning about, but I want to pursue it more seriously. For my electives for SM, I want one of them to be Beginning Film-Making. They offer it for freshman and sophomores...I'm so excited! It sounds like a lot of fun!!

Wow, it does feel like I'm writing in a diary! I write a lot of stuff that i WOULD be writing in a diary, if I had the patience to keep one. I always start one and then I keep it for a few weeks, then I get bored with it. My life isn't that exciting most of the time. Well, actually it is. But I don't like repeating it. :)

I called you last night to see if you were coming to EYG! I needed to know so I could pick you up....by the time you called my mom and I had already left hahahaha.... But you should have been there! We started learning the dance for the talent show....wow it was a blast! Verrrrry funny heheheheheeeeeee.... Oh yeah I get to be a guy, or maybe Martha (you know, the really big cheerleader girl hahahahahahahahahahahahaha lol!).

About the stuff with your friends/ex-friends.....there's a lot I have to say about that but since you love getting comments so much, I will save it for that! Bye for now.....I willl definitely try to post later today to make up for lost time! :)

Love, your insane friend,

Brunette.

P.S. Funny story...you know the test? Well Mrs.Tamez always gives whoever gets 100 on their test a candy bar. Well Paige of course got one cuz she aced the test (she's a total genius, I love her), but I got a candy bar too even though I didn't get 100! I think it was probably cuz of the essay question.....poor Mrs. Tamez wants to make sure I don't have a relapse! :)

This is officially my FOURTH BLOG WITH NO BLOG FROM YOU!!!!!!!! Six thirty has come and gone...post soon! Anyways, I am going late to school because my grandparents were over for my grandpa's birthday and I didn't get to finish my homework. So if you post before 10:00 a.m., then I will be able to read it. Of course nothing has happened yet today, but I will probably post later, after school. How was EYG? Was the talent show fun?I called you back, but you didn't answer. YOU GUYS NEED TO START PICKING UP THE PHONE!!!!!!!!! Ok, that is all :) Read my post from last night if you haven't already! Love, Blonde

Well, I read your comment and I really can't take credit for all that. I mean, I WAS furious. Not particularly humiliated, because they're stupid and I don't walk any differently than they do. I couldn't resist a few well placed comments to make them wonder today though. First to Gabby M., because she should be feeling more than a little guilty. I mean, I know she was just doing it to fit in, but, really. So, as I was leaving the classroom, I looked her in the eye and said, 'Do you usually watch people walk?' And she looked confused, because she didn't know that I knew. I love shocking people! She's like, 'What?' And I was like, 'Gabby, I know.' And she was like, 'Yeah,' and I left the room. :) haha that was fun. Next, after lunch, I had MS Enrichment, where I sit next to Rachael who sits next to Jade. Miserable, right? And stupid Rachael doesn't know that I know either. She tries to act like we're friends. She's like talking to me and I'm like really distant. Finally, I say, 'You should watch what you say in front of Jasmine, because she tells me everything.' Well, that shut her up, she didn't talk to me for the rest of class! That girl has a guilty conscience, though, she kept glancing at me throughout the class. And I talked to Tori today because we had to sit together in Tech. According to Jasmine, Tori and Jade were not making fun of me, but they were the only ones. So I told her that Jasmine told me everything. And she was really curious, so I told her what Jasmine had said. Then she was really uncomfortable and was like, 'Oh, yeah, I think both Gabbys are just doing that to fit in, I'm guessing. But you're still my friend, so I didn't.' My goal is to get Tori to realize just how mean her friends are. So I told her about what they said to Emily about me and she's like, 'Really? No one ever told me about that.' And I said, 'Yeah, but I don't really care, I'm over them.' And she's like, 'That's mean!' (meaning what they did). And I'm like, 'Yeah, but whatever.' Reverse pyshcology, right? haha. And she's like, 'They can be stupid sometimes.'

THAT IS OFFICIALLY THE UNDERSTATELMENT OF THE DAY. THE WEEK, THE MONTH. THE YEAR!!!!!!!!

Anyways, I was talking to Lisa, (yes, Lisa), who says that she won't rub it in TOO much, (haha). Jade, that is. She has warned me about Jade all along. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Anyways, turns out she hears a lot of interesting things about them on me... Those things both horrify and fascinate me. I am able to see the utter ridiculousness of the situation...but I am also able to remember that they were some of my best friends at one time. If a person dwells on that for too long, it can really make them sad. I mean, I loved this group! I STARTED this group. They were all together because they were MY friends. Every single one of them but Rachael. That is why I can't blame Rachael as much. She never signed on as my friend, she was always strictly Jade's friend.

Speaking of Jade, guess what I found out? Tori said she thinks Jade feels bad about the whole thing sometimes. As Lisa said, (it is sorta nice being freinds with Lisa again-she's a good casual friend in a couple classes; it just doesn't work as a close friend) 'She SHOULD feel bad!' And as I said to Tori, 'Well, she's certainly doing a good job pretending that she's NOT sorry!' To Jade's credit, I have never heard from my spies, (haha, not really spies, but people DO tell me things), that Jade has said she disliked me. I mean, I am sure she has made fun of me or whatever. But I think she more is sure that I don't like her than she dislikes me. Now I am not sure about that, but, like, I don't think Jade would ever DIRECTLY give me any problems. She knows, by now, that I don't take her crap, (sorry, no other way to express it.). And, like, in class, when I was gone, Jade said, 'Let's sit there, (next to where I was), and Rachael's like, 'No, 'Blonde' sits here.' and Jade was like, 'Oh, yeah, she hates me right now.' RIGHT NOW?????? How about she hates me, period. End of sentence. But I have to give her credit: she said 'she hates me', not 'i hate her' or 'ew, mackenzie', like she would've to Lisa or whatever. So that makes me think-well, no. I am not going to defend Jade.

Haha, when I write these posts, I feel like I am writing in a diary or something. When it is something like this, at least. When I am, like, posting about a boring day, I feel like I am just writing to you out of sense of duty. But when I am writing about something like this, I cease to write to you anymore, (no offense!!!!! :)). I am just writing what I think. I have no sense if this is interesting at all to you, but all this needs to go SOMEWHERE and I can never remember to keep a diary. So here it is...:)

On an utterly unrelated note, we had to do this thing where we have to vote for who is the most Christian-like or nice person in our grade. Two guys, two girls. It was so stupid; we did it on paper and then, Mrs. Egus, our evil tech teacher, wanted to tryrannize us again, since tech is over, and made us rip up the papers and re-do it on this online thing she found. My two girls were Ashley and Addie. My two guys were Bill and Sean. It was really hard-you had to write about why you chose them too. Addie: nice to ppl no matter how popular they are; (aka Gabby M), Ashley: includes everyone; Sean: Nice to everyone; Bill: everybody's friend. Now, about Bill, I honestly do not like him anymore. I am utterly serious. I am not just saying that. We were in a group together in MS Enrich and that sealed it. We both like to be leaders and fight for control in a polite way. :) Haha, not like fight, but it annoyed me. Anyways, that is long over, thank goodness. Yes, he is very nice, but I just don't like him that way anymore, and I am happy about that. :)

So that's it for today! Please post soon so this is not a one (wo)man blog!!!!!!!

LOve from your stupid, philosophical,

BLONDE

Well, with the help of my friends, I was able to see the humorous side of the situation and turned the situation around totally. It was sooooo funny! Okay, so here's what happened, (yesterday, I was so mad that I didn't even want to get into it again):

So, yesterday, Jasmine told me that Gabby W., (who has absoultely no reason to dislike me and is perfectly friendly when I see her), Rachael, and Maddison were making fun of me at lunch,
Jasmine told me, (about the way I walk, (what the heck???? Who notices how someone WALKS???? Who CARES???), and that I was hanging out with these people because they do sports at lunch), while Tori and Jade laughed. Now, I realize that they are totally lame, but I was FURIOUS. And guess what? Someone else told me that Gabby Micalizio is going around saying, Have you seen the way 'Blonde walks?' GABBY MICALIZIO!!!!!! Who, like, never has any friends. Who sits alone after she eats at lunch. Who I was always nice to. WHO WAS SUPPOSED TO BE A NICE PERSON!!!! I mean, really. She has NO room to make fun of anyone. She who talks about ghosts and getting her hair dyed red and getting a nose ring. Honestly.

So, naturally, I was furious. But then I started to see how much fun I could have with this. After consulting Emily T and making her go with me, and texting Serena, I made a plan. A hilarious plan. Like, I want to laugh just thinking of it. Really, it's Emily's fault. I mean, she dared me to do it when I told her. :)

So, you know how they think I walk weird? Well, I grabbed Emily, and we found them standing by the field. So, we very casually walked by-except for one thing. The way I walked. I walked with my left foot pointed all the way left and my right all the way right and pointed right. And I lifted each leg so that it was crossing the other. IT WAS SOOOOO FUNNY!!!!! Emily and I nearly DIED of laughing afterwards. I could see them watching us. Then, when we crossed the corner, I could see them running to tell Maddie, who had unfortunately not there to see my performance. They are so predictable and ridiculous. I wish you could've seen it, it was so funny!!!!!!!! You would've been cracking up.

So that is my way to overcome the situation and have fun with it. It is really much better to just make a joke of it than to get all upset and dramatic over it. And, instead of being really mad when I think about it, I want to laugh when I do. They're so stupid and shallow. Thank God for Emily. (And Lizzy and Ashley and everyone else. But mainly Emily.)

So there you are. That was my day. And my sermon. Haha, I feel like lately, I've been preaching at the end of my posts. Sorry! Please comment and post! Hope you had a good day! Love, Blonde

Hey, Brunette! I like your last post, it's very well written...

Sometimes I scare myself a little. If something bad happens, I hold it in and don't tell anyone-or maybe someone at school-but when I get home, I have to act like nothing happens. Nothing bad, like bad bad. Just-well, by now you have probabaly guessed that something bad has happened! Not directly, but I heard about it. It's those stupid girls again. I don't know if I'm glad I know or not. Little do they know that they have an informer within them! And guess who it was? None other than Jasmine! She tells me what they say and I act like I don't care...I don't know if I do. Sometimes I do, sometimes I don't. It's just frusterating, because they used to be like some of my best friends. Well, that's about it. If I'm still this mad tommorow, I would like to see one of them if they try to talk to me...