Disturbia (random I know, but I was listening to the song as I was typing!)

Hey you, my stupid philosophical Blonde! (well that's how you put it, I'm not going to argue) :) I am SO SO sorry that I have left you to do this silly blog by yourself! FOUR POSTS?! All by one girl? CRAZY! CONSPIRACY! I've just been so busy lately....I haven't had time to do anything on the computer. That reminds me, I have to respond to Emi....she emailed me! A few days ago too -- I haven't responded because, well, I already said it. Busy! Hahaha I am feeling guilty though, so I will definitely try to respond to her today. Or this afternoon. Or tonight. I am actually supposed to be doing schoolwork, cuz Mom and Mo and Mic are doing P.E. I already ran this morning so I am not doing it with them. I'm getting back into running....it was weird though, the reason I stopped for a while was because of the whole eating thing. I was just using the running as a way to burn more calories, but it hurt to run cuz when you don't refuel properly your muscles get really sore. But I kinda ignored the pain cuz I was dead-set on losing weight. I was kind of used to it by then, because honestly it hurts a little to starve yourself. But anyway...........hahahahahahaha :) Oh yeah speaking of that, I got my test back. I got a 92! Yay! Hahaha :) Basically I poured everything out on that essay question, and my teacher wrote a comment on the paper. This is what she said:

"Wow!! I got goosebumps! I think God has gifted you with an opportunity to counsel peaople with eating disorders. You speak from experience, so you can empathize with their feelings. Have you thought about this as a ministry or even a profession? I think you would help a lot of people!

I hope you over came your disorder to your satisfaction!! Praise God you're dealing with it before it's too late!"

I thought that was pretty cool! I never thought about counseling...I think I want to be a director when I grow up -- like direct movies especially. I've been thinking about it a lot lately. I mean it's always been something that I've enjoyed learning about, but I want to pursue it more seriously. For my electives for SM, I want one of them to be Beginning Film-Making. They offer it for freshman and sophomores...I'm so excited! It sounds like a lot of fun!!

Wow, it does feel like I'm writing in a diary! I write a lot of stuff that i WOULD be writing in a diary, if I had the patience to keep one. I always start one and then I keep it for a few weeks, then I get bored with it. My life isn't that exciting most of the time. Well, actually it is. But I don't like repeating it. :)

I called you last night to see if you were coming to EYG! I needed to know so I could pick you up....by the time you called my mom and I had already left hahahaha.... But you should have been there! We started learning the dance for the talent show....wow it was a blast! Verrrrry funny heheheheheeeeeee.... Oh yeah I get to be a guy, or maybe Martha (you know, the really big cheerleader girl hahahahahahahahahahahahaha lol!).

About the stuff with your friends/ex-friends.....there's a lot I have to say about that but since you love getting comments so much, I will save it for that! Bye for now.....I willl definitely try to post later today to make up for lost time! :)

Love, your insane friend,

Brunette.

P.S. Funny story...you know the test? Well Mrs.Tamez always gives whoever gets 100 on their test a candy bar. Well Paige of course got one cuz she aced the test (she's a total genius, I love her), but I got a candy bar too even though I didn't get 100! I think it was probably cuz of the essay question.....poor Mrs. Tamez wants to make sure I don't have a relapse! :)