trainwreck

hey blonde! as you know, it's wednesday, and usually that means that i have news about stephen...well, the same is true in a way this time i suppose, but it isn't exactly what either of us wanted. shall i get to the point? okay, here goes.....

like i told you, today was the first day of the second semester, and we just had semester break. what i DIDN'T remember is that people can drop or change classes during the break, and lots of people do. today, when i got to my first class, it looked a little empty, but i thought maybe the missing people were simply late. stephen was one of the people who were "late". i thought nothing of it, until we were halfway through class and the missing kids still hadn't shown. i realized that some people might have changed classes over the break; even nicole dropped IEW (writing class).

so next came science. stephen is in my science class, and science is everyone's favorite class (strange, i know, but our teacher is really funny and it's an awesome group), so i expected to see him there. well, he didn't show up. so i assumed he was absent.

lunch was a bore, waiting without someone to stare at (i'm KIDDING!). we got to history class, there was only four people with stephen gone. i sometimes get to sit next to him in history, but instead i sat next to sam, who is nice! but not the same. so anyway, i was sort of frustrated cuz i was having a good hairday and stephen WASN'T there, but oh well. such is life.

after history class, my teacher kept me late. it's not the first time it's happened; my history teacher really likes me! but she told me that i was going to have to keep up my good grades and keep setting a good example (how embarrassing! gosh). i asked her what she meant, and she's like, "well, since youre the only girl now that G dropped out, there's only going to be three of you students and i need you to help me out by staying a great student." once again: embarrassing! but then it dawned on me. stephen wasn't coming back.

he dropped out completely, i found out from sam and my teachers. it was a bit of a shock, and i'm kinda disapointed, but strangely not as much as i thought i would be. maybe i didn't really want to get caught up in liking some one anyway. i'm not really sure how to feel, to be honest. it's a weird feeling, knowing that i spent so much time thinking about him and now i will probably never see him again.

well, that's all for now. except for this:

".....one more thing i thought i'd share with someone special / i'm falling like i've never fell before / it's funny you said we'd never make it and look how far we've come / youre a trainwreck, but with you i'm in love...."

(no, i am NOT in love with him, its part of the song called "trainwreck"!) :)

love, brunette

ps we have our first follower! haha thanks audrey, your blog is cool :)