Wow, you call ME a stalker?! Hahaha sounds like the pot calling the kettle black. I'm not sure what that phrase means. But I decided to use it...because you can't say that I am the stalker if you have equally stalkerish tendencies. But it's all right, I don't mind. :) As a general rule I try not to write anything that I wouldn't be okay with other people seeing and knowing that it was me who wrote it. I mean, of course I wouldn't want other people seeing this blog, but that is only because there are some personal things written on here. But I haven't bashed anyone or used language, so it would be fine if someone read this. But it would be sort of like reading my diary or something, you know? Haha, a little off track there...sorry!
It sounds like Troy either likes you, or he just doesn't pay attention enough. I can't say, because I am not there! But we'll just have to wait and see, right? Hehe.
I'm glad you are making new friends at your class! Kayla is shy at first, but she is really funny once you start talking to her. And she is very loyal...and she knows a lot of awesome songs. We tend to sing them together when we are hyper. I'm glad that I will be on the cross country team, because I will get to make lots of new friends before school starts! Major benefit there. I mean, I already know several people who are going there, but there is something about being on a team and making new, strong friendships before the actual high school experience starts that is comforting. First day of school....I shouldn't have to worry. ;) I'm not a new kid. We are ALL new kids. It doesn't matter where you went to school anymore, it's where you are GOING to be: at S.M. The cliques will break up...to form new cliques most likely, but so what? I will not have some stupid group or clique. I have a clean slate. I refuse to comform to the cliched high school stereotype. Not happening. :)
Hmm...good question about the eating disorder thing. I think I have talked to you about it a few times before, so I don't want to be repeating myself! That would be annoying for you! But since you asked, I suppose that the need of being in control of something was a factor. It was my last year of homeschooling, and I knew that after that year, my world would turn upside down because of high school. It felt like everything was going too fast, and there was nothing I could do about it. So yes, I think that by deciding, "I don't have to eat this. I don't want to eat this. I can't eat this," I felt that I was in control of at least one aspect of my life. And there was a reward system. Every time I got on the scale (which I did at least twice a day) and saw that the number was lower, I was happy. It was like I was accomplishing something all by myself, by my own choice.
But anyway, that is going to be weird having to study that in health...AGAIN. It was awkward the first time cuz we had to answer all those questions honestly, but fortunately it never got to bad for me. I only lost about 11 pounds, and I am not sure if there was any physical signs of it. My mom kept saying, "Your jeans are getting baggy" and whatnot, but I don't know if you could tell just by looking at me. I was just depressed and not fun to be around. I guess I was angry. I don't really know why. It was a phase, I suppose. But I remember bruising a lot easier and being really sore for no reason when it was happening. I just became "afraid" of food. I also exercized constantly in order to burn more calories. I have to tell you...those runs that we did around the lake? I was only using those to get rid of the calories. I enjoyed running with you, but my real motive was to lose weight by running more. I'm sorry...I shouldn't have used you in that way. I don't know what was wrong with me. I'm sorry.
On a lighter note! ;) Wow, it's just as I suspected: you HAVEN'T gotten over Cory. But it's totally okay. I mean, I know that you only like him a little, and that's fine! You will get over him eventually. Or you might end up getting married. But we'll just have to see about that, won't we?
DON'T go see T2. Everyone I know who has watched it said that it was really bad. I know what you mean - I'm not the kind of person who would want to see that either!
Psh, I knew you would pick pink. I like white though. Red is of course a great COLOR, but I think it's a bit too much to have red nails unless you are going somewhere fancy. What color is your bathing suit? I just got mine, and I like it! I will need a two-piece for S.M. though, I believe. Oh well....hahaha. At least they support modesty! Ugh, I can't stand chipped nails. I have a nail polish, and the bottle says that it is "DIAMOND STRENGTH : No Chip Nail Color" but guess what? It chips MORE than my regular kind! Geez! Talk about marketing problems.
Wow, we do sound like total girls, don't we? Hahaha well I feel like staying girly for a few more minutes, so I will talk about the shampoo I bought today. Shampoo AND conditioner, to be specific. I got a new kind, it's supposed to be for people with wavy or curly hair. Let's see what it says on the bottle....
*Bonus*
*40% MORE!*
HERBAL ESSENCES
totally twisted
curls & waves shampoo
WITH A FUSION OF
french lavender twist
&
jade extracts
I'm deliciously bent, and your hair is, too.
Okay, so that is my shampoo bottle. We shall see if it works...or if it is another of one of those amazing marketing jobs. (Think "DIAMOND STRENGTH" nail polish.)
Well I have to go now, but I will post later! See ya...
Love love love,
BRUNETTE.
